The Truth

“God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear…” Psalm 46:1-2

“Over the years I have become kind of numb. The people who know and care about me know the truth. The people I care about know I am innocent. I also know what a lot of other people unfortunately think. And to think about it too much can be painful.

In many ways I have been protected from a lot of it though. In juvenile hall we were not allowed to read the newspaper, so I never saw the worst of what the paper said about me or the case. In the county jail I was always able to tell the truth any time it came up and the guys were always shocked. The worst of what I heard came from the District Attorney himself, but I learned very early on that he was not seeking truth and justice.

The hardest thing I heard was in Calipatria at my initial committee review. My “counselor” stood in front of the other committee members and read from some report. It was like I just had to sit there and take punch after punch in the stomach. I have not been back to an annual committee review since.

I know the truth. I know I am innocent. I know I do not belong here. I don’t really care what strangers think. But I also don’t want to be subjected to their verbal cruelty even if they’re just ‘doing their job’. Sometimes I feel weak for how I deal with this. Everyone always says how strong I am for doing so well in here. But in many ways I hide from the reality of what I am in prison for because I know I am innocent and I don’t belong here. When I am asked  I always defend myself, I always tell the truth and state my innocence. But if I am not asked, or even in that committee review, I don’t say anything.

I used to try and just get by, make it through another day. But now I feel like I am living again. You have brought light back into my life. And you make me question whether being silent about my innocence is the right thing.”

excerpt from Sean’s letter 1/17/2015

About Sean & Emelia

In 2003 Sean O'Brien was wrongfully convicted in El Dorado County, CA and sentenced to Life Without Parole at the age of 16. We have been friends since grade school and are now married. Sean and I move forward together with the knowledge of his innocence, our faith in God, and hope that he will rightfully regain his freedom. Until then we embrace our journey wherever it may take us, cherishing each moment we have together and staying true to ourselves. This blog is about the past we share, our fight for freedom, life as it exists for us, and our path toward the future, whatever that may hold. Thank you for allowing us to be heard. God bless.
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One Response to The Truth

  1. Debbie says:

    It is very difficult to read my son’s account of what is happening to our family. I do share his same feelings. Debbie


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