Written by Emelia

I was SURE that right after the hearing Sean would be released. I was dead-set on that notion. One would think that with all the disappointments we’ve already had that I might be a little more hesitant to set myself up for more but I was ABSOLUTELY POSITIVE that by the 30 day mark after the hearing we’d hear some news. Any news. (Umm….didn’t we WIN here??) But the 30 day mark came and went. August is nearly over. I had high hopes of the two of us enjoying the tail end of summer, allowing Sean to experience just a taste of what he has missed out on: BBQs, camping, fishing, swimming.

I have to assure myself that I am not crazy. That we actually did win, Sean is in fact coming home and these things just take time. Lots and lots of time, why do these things take so long??? But it feels like time is slipping away and it’s time we will never get back.

As we continue to wait with nothing changing I am struggling to cope with the feelings that come.  I feel that somehow if I were stronger or more resilient I would be doing amazing things with this blog; writing profound tear-jerking posts and gathering a mass of outraged followers, literally freeing Sean with my online movement. But I am not, I am just a girl getting through the day. Sometimes just getting through the day is good enough.

I am trying to remember to pray, stay positive, and to enjoy my present situation keeping in mind that our good news will come, surely it will. I must accept that I cannot change this situation.   All I can do is keep hope alive, for me and for Sean.

As we approach the 60 day mark the waiting continues…