I have been eagerly counting down the days to my evidentiary hearing in Sacramento scheduled for January 2017. This hearing has been such a long time coming for us and it brings so much hope for our future. At times we both feared if I would even be granted such an opportunity in court. We always knew it was rightfully deserved but it was a long and constant struggle to even get just a court date set. Against all odds we have maintained our faith in God, our love, and our fight for truth and justice. We have suffered and sacrificed.
But that’s not what I am writing about today. This blog post is about what I am looking forward to when I come home. People often ask us about this so I wanted to shed some light on what life looks like when I picture it.
This situation our relationship has grown from gives us a special and unique view on life and what truly matters. We do not fantasize about material things or an extravagant or luxurious lifestyle. Believe it or not, we never dream about anything more than a simple life; because that’s the kind of life we both value most. Honestly, our focus is on each other, family, and the time we will spend together. Only when one is locked away in prison and forcibly kept apart from those they love most does one truly understand how important and special time with them is. I am definitely looking forward to time with my wife and spending time doing the things we enjoy far more than getting wrapped up in technology. I mostly want to resist the technology craze that has taken over so much of society. Yes there are useful things some smart phones can help you do like navigation but other than that I am not interested.
The simple things in life that most people take for granted, in some cases even viewing them as a burden, these are the things I dream of experiencing again. Even something as mundane as taking out the garbage. Not only because it will be helping keep our home in order, but because the front door will be open, the gate will be unlocked. I will be free to come and go as I please for the first time in over 13 years!
All I want is to be home. I feel good knowing I am going home where I will be safe and loved.
I look forward to doing normal things together, the day-to-day I haven’t experienced in so long. I will be free to go for a walk , sleep in a real bed with my wife beside me, free from the worry and fear that I carry with me every day here in prison. I will be free to spend time at the park for a picnic in the sunshine with Emelia while our dog runs and plays. Free to go to the river and swim, I wonder if my body will remember what it feels like. I will be free to go out in the wilderness and hike on a forest trail. I really want to get back into jogging again, I miss it.
For the first time ever we will have the opportunity to cook a meal together. Going to the grocery store to choose the ingredients, following a real recipe rather than just opening a plastic pre-packaged container will be a real blessing for me. Eventually I would like to get a barbecue grill because I love cooking food this way especially when it is for someone I care about. I bet our dog Samson will be excited to smell the meat cooking and hope for a tasty bite, that would be awesome.
I cannot wait to go fishing again once I am home. When you go fishing you don’t always catch fish, but most of the time I do! When you’re not catching fish if you over-focus on that and the time that is passing, then fishing becomes boring and no fun. For me, part of the joy has just been enjoying the moment. When I went fishing I would just enjoy being out in nature, having my dogs there with me or my friends & family. If you love the outdoors as I do, there is so much to just enjoy being out there. But another fun part is catching all the fish! I cannot wait to experience this again; to truly be free to love, live, and embrace all life has for us.
Written by Sean O’Brien