Drawing by Emelia, colored by Sean
August 11, 2018 was beginning of our most recent Family Visit at Corcoran State Prison. The following day was our one year wedding anniversary. Sean and I felt incredibly lucky to get to celebrate our special day together, it was purely chance that we even got that date because we have no control over the scheduling of Family Visits. It was incredibly special to get to spend the entire day together on our anniversary and not have to say goodbye the entire time. From the moment we awoke until the time we fell asleep it was just us. And then of course we were awakened by the count time calls, but if that’s just what we have to do in order to get quality time together.
Our special day was spent doing what we love best at Family Visit. We did a lot of cooking because that’s something we enjoy doing together. He absolutely loves the meat & cheese sandwiches I grill for him and I love the scrambled eggs he makes. We baked our cookies and this time used vanilla ice cream from the vending machines to make ice cream sandwiches! The radio is always on while we cook and eat, we like singing or dancing when a good song comes on. We enjoy helping each other with typical daily tasks that for us are usually spent alone, simple things that you wouldn’t really think about like brushing your teeth or cleaning up. We watched 2 DVDs including our current favorite: Wall-E. We didn’t spend much time outside because of the poor air quality from the big fires but we had a great time indoors, lots of happy memories to hold onto.
Then came our tearful goodbye. I can honestly say that having to leave Sean after Family Visit is the hardest thing I ever have to do. It feels like I am leaving a part of my body behind, because I am not whole without him. When I got into my car with no choice but to drive away it felt like a slow suffocation. When I see the pain and sadness in his eyes as our fingers reach each others through the chain link fence and we kiss one last time, I feel like I am literally leaving a piece of my heart behind.
We are so grateful for the life we have; despite the pain and fear that comes from his wrongful conviction, being kept apart, and an uncertain future. Our love is the greatest blessing, we tell each other honestly every day how happy we are to be married. I am proud to be his wife and he tells me all the time that being my husband is his greatest honor. Our Family Visits are so special and we are grateful for the time we get together. It was only a year ago that this was given to us and it has completely changed our lives.
For we live by faith, not by sight. 2 COR 5:7